I knew this wasn't going to work out.
I knew it the second I woke up.
6:31, the alarm goes off. I roll over and switch it off. The usual heart attack didn't accompany the alarm this morning though, because I had already been awake. I went to sleep at 2, and my cat graciously decided to wake me up at the hours of 4:01, 4:57, 5:12, 5:35, 5:56 and in all my utter exhaustion I couldn't get to sleep after that. Lord knows I tried, but sleep didn't come to me- only vague recollections of the Homestuck Kickstarter project. I had heard that it was launched a week or two ago and did phenomenally, but I hadn't thought of it since. I don't even like Homestuck. I've never read it. It had no business occupying my head.
But after fading in and out of consciousness for half an hour, the alarm decided it would pull me from purgatory.
I knew from that second that this wasn't going to work- this day wasn't going to happen. I curled up in a little ball, and just started echoing to myself quietly
"no..."
"no..."
"no..."
"no..."
"no..."
"no..."
"no..."
"please no..."
"no..."
It was only slightly gratifying. Eventually I forced myself up. Looking at myself in the mirror, I was horrified. I remembered I had failed to take my usual shower the night before, because my new work schedule was throwing me off. My hair was a mess. It's often a mess, but it was horrific this morning. You don't even know.
The rest of the day panned out as such:
Discover that we're out of milk for breakfast
My roommate, Kitty, stumbles through the door at about six thirty seven, saying she's late for work after staying at her boyfriend's house all night. She asks to borrow my bike. I okay it, because I'm not late yet.
My mom wakes up and informs me that the dog has an infection in her tooth
And her butt
And she peed herself last night
On my floor
And the couch
I brush my hair. It still looks awful.
I flat iron my hair. It still looks awful.
I do all sorts of inhumane things to my hair. It becomes barely passable. I say 'fuck it' to putting on make-up though because really with the condition I/my hair was in there wasn't even any point.
I force myself to leave early since I don't have a bike and have to walk instead. I'm horrified to learn that it's thirty degrees out.
brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
I reach the bus stop right as my bus pulls away
I catch the next bus with every intention to sleep the whole way. This works for about three stops, and then a particularly sketchy man takes the seat next to me. I find myself unable to sleep for the duration of the trip, the whole time entirely paranoid that he's going to pickpocket me.
I get to my first class and sit next to my sort-of friend, who has like the cutest outfit on I legitimately want to cry she looked so pretty and then there I was sitting by her effectively looking like a homeless person
I find out that she speaks fluent Japanese, so I feel like even more of an idiot compared to her
And then this is the freakiest thing, I see her posting comments on a blog or something promoting the Homestuck Kickstarter. I mentioned how I had spontaneously had visions of it that morning, and she tells me how she donated two hundred dollars herself and that the project was closing today and raise 2.5 million. TWO AND A HALF MILLION DOLLARS!!! From a personal project on the internet. Here I am running a Pokemon website and I'm like hurrdurr wat is money. Not that I want to make a living off of Pokemon, but I would like to make it off of some creative project in the future and as inspiring as seeing that is, given my negative attitude it was actually mainly demotivating
She goes on to tell me how she has like a 40% discount on all of her clothes and I proceed to die of jealousy on the inside a little bit more
This stuff about her is basically just me qqing, not actually why my day was bad, but details.
The rest of the actual class was spent with the teacher taking suggestions from the students. The rest of the class is clearly massochistic because these suggestions included more homework, more quizzes, and grading quizzes stricter. This is an 8 AM class, btw.
Next class. I fall asleep despite being on Reborn and trying to work on the game at the same time. I'm pretty sure when I jolted awake I accidentally kicked the chair of the girl in front of me. ><
Break. Every Thursday my school gives out free pizza to anyone who wears the school spirit shirt. I plan around this, buying a much smaller lunch to be supplemented by the free pizza, since I finally for the first time remembered to bring my shirt. While waiting in a much-longer-line than usual this girl runs up to me- she and I talked once before when she said she liked my hair and then she proceeded to do an elaborate dance routine in front of the bus stop for no apparent reason (even declining to get on the bus when it came)- and starts feeling my hair. This wouldn't be a problem if it had been any other day but it just had to be the day that I looked and felt like a pile of mucus. She starts commenting on how she likes it, is trying to grow hers out, and how it's weird when white people get perms (she's black, her hair obviously perm'd too). I stand there like a deer in the headlights still trying to comprehend why anyone would want to talk to me in my present condition.
Got my small lunch, ate it. Put shirt on, went to the free pizza place... ...no one there. The ONE week I finally bring my shirt.
Next class, we discuss articles. There are a lot to get through, and then my teacher decides to let class out early right before we start to discuss the one article I was actually looking forward to.
Break between school and work, I get back on my computer. Checking my email, I see a promotion from my webhost to raise money for Breast Cancer research by pasting a link on the site. I do it, and then glance up and sitting across the room from me happens to be the girl from earlier, and she just happened to make eye contact with me for that split second. awkward.
She runs across the room, feels up my hair again, and then finally asks my name. She gives me hers and like an idiot I don't hear it, so I ask her to repeat it, and she repeats the other thing she said, which I can't even remember what that was, and then leaves as if she were pissed off. I sit there wondering what just happened.
Work. My student shows up late, so my boss gives me something to do in the meantime- numbering the free meal cards. I spend an hour numbering cards from one to four hundred. Great fun, really.
A particularly boisterous student bursts into the office and after a bit incessantly starts telling me to cheer up. He doesn't seem to be able to take a hint.
I'm suddenly informed that I will not be tutoring my student in Literature, but biology instead. I'm an English tutor. Not a science tutor.
My student shows up and doesn't have her Biology. She has math. I'm definitely not a math tutor.
Like I understand varying levels of education but this is a high schooler who needed a calculator to do 10+5.
Here I am trying to figure out what percentile rank and bin width are because I haven't heard these terms in like five years if ever and she doesn't even know how to do basic multiplication
what the fuck
Get my own free meal from Subway! This is a good thing, right?. Veggie Patty with lettuce mayonaise parmesean and black olives. Take a bite into it- cringe. I spit out an olive pit. I didn't even know olives had pits. And you know what? They taste bloody awful. Partly from the taste and partly from the shock of that thing being in the sammich in the first place- I find it extremely difficult to recover the motivation to continue eating.
As I leave, my favorite necklace breaks
I walk in the door. My mom tells me to feed the bird. I do so. The bird shrieks. My mom tells me not to feed the bird for a while.
I ask her if I can finally go take my shower and feed him afterwards, she says yes.I get out of the shower "Oh by the way I need you to wash the dog and the couch". So that was one good shower wasted, getting gross almost immediately.
Sign onto Reborn- the website isn't working!
Apparently it's not working because it's mysteriously contracted malware and avast is blocking me from it? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
Deactivate Avast to undo the only change I made: Remove the breast cancer link
Still doesn't fix it!
Reactivate avast and go clean the couch. "Spray it and then take a rag towel and stomp on it to force the moisture out" As I go to get the ragtowel, I cut my toe on a mysterious sharp edge of the couch. This is a padded, cushioned couch. I do not think I could cut myself on it if I tried! But I did anyway!
Can no longer stomp using that foot, and am forced to apply rag towel pressure by hoping on one foot
Come back and try to play a game of LoL to unwind. Get matched with really good partners! ...d/c the entire game.
Afterwards I discover that my entire computer no longer has internet access! LoL won't load, AIM won't load, google won't load. Malware?
>Meaning it's not impossible, were there any, for the entire site to be infected and distributing it
(later edit. apparently the malware thing stopped so there shouldnt be any further risk)
But yeah. Here I am writing this on my netbook. I'm just qqing a lot, I know. But just.... iebdsjhbjhwbesjdhbjhwebjsdhbiuwbesdlob vljhewbsdljhblwhebsdlxcjhbljhwelsdjhblehdsbljhb.