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I was a little of a dickhead, I know.
- Not saying or responding to wishes during Christmas' and New Year's seasons
- Being overall silent in the forum
- Being serious and hardly laughing at all
- Forgetting myself and accidentally spoiling plot of the gang just because "it's been public for a while"
- Not giving a fuck about other people's deaths or tragedies (perhaps the most insensitive was my reaction on Joseph Ratzinger's passing, which was like: "Well, I saw that coming...")
In fact, I feel like I'm slowly becoming insensitive, bored and way too straightforward, but in a bad way. Just like Larry.
But there's a difference here - Larry is a fictional character, within a fictional universe, fullon unique personaliies. And I am pretty much real. And... I don't wanna lose the will to live!
Maybe it's just me getting desperate over lack of any human contact ("quite unique" for an introvert since early elementary school), or my life is getting repetitive, or it's real depression... or combination for all.
I know I don't need to say it... well, I guess I just did... maybe because not even my family doesn't want to hear my problems, even daring to say that "depression and all 'mental illnesses' are a figment of lazy humans"
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Do I need to say more?
Maybe it's on me for not having close friends in real life... because I wish NOT to be in the vicinity of vandals, drug dealers and third-rated racketeers.
And- and why am I saying this? Who will care? Are you trying to make a victim out of yourself, Oscar?
...y'know, forget it.
Maybe I shouldn't type it... but, somehow, I have the urge to speak about my problems with others whenever I'm feeling under the weather.
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I don’t know why I’m writing this. I usually give a wide berth to personal advice or comfort talk because many kinder, more empathetic, more eloquent, more reasonable, more insightful people write it better than I can, and I don’t trust myself to strike the right chord.
But here, I guess the worst-case scenario is that you decide that at least you’re not as bad as I am.
First things first: it’s universal of to have issues, and want to talk about them – if not to a person who can understand you, then shouting about it from the rooftops or writing them on the walls…
Second: everyone needs human contact. Even those who used to think they didn’t – I should know, I’m one of them too. It’s not victimhood, just about a need about as deep-rooted as food or shelter. Do you know the rule of threes? About surviving three minutes without air, three days without water and three weeks without food? I read about a fourth “three” lately: three months without social contact.
I hardly know anything about your personal situation, but you might need to cast a wider net, as I struggle to believe that everyone you have ever met was as base as you described.
As far as I understand, the prevalence of mental health issues in students (I think you’re one) has skyrocketed from an already high baseline. So I guess the main takeaway from this part is that you’re not alone, and other people struggle with similar issues.
I wish I had material advice to help you “snap out of it”. I suppose that the best way to prevent your life from being repetitive is to just do something new or unusual – but that’s not that much help. Maybe something outside, one way or another? While you can find a lot of excellent content on youtube or different derivatives on other parts of the internet, these coping mechanisms may be insufficient, perhaps because they’re too passive.
While boredom may be fought (for instance, by seeking out novelty – be they books, shows, topics of interest, content creators on social media, challenges, IRL projects…), I don’t really have any advice on the topic of insensitivity or being straightforward.
Finally, regarding the behaviors that you’re accusing yourself of: I think you should keep in mind that you’re obviously not in the best frame of mind to judge yourself.
Spoilers are a blunder, as are a lack of answer or just acknowledgement to well-wishers (Jan 4th is still completely fine in my book though), but it’s nowhere near the end of the world. “Being serious” is not particularly unpleasant behavior, neither is “being overall silent” – lurking is fine! I have little to say these days too (TOOO is quite stuck, I’m not very good at the game and the rest isn’t really worth talking about).
As to deaths… I think it’s fine to not sink in grief every time someone slightly famous passes away. It’s sad, certainly – but it’s usually not unexpected, nor do I think it should be incapacitating. If they didn’t mean much to you, why should you mourn them any more that the other, less famous, dead of the day? And how could we keep going ahead if we’re mourning each day the dead of this day? So I think it’s fine to be unaffected – so long as you’re considerate to those who aren’t, regardless of the reason.
Happy new year, and I hope that you get better.
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Nowadays, in my life, there's either superluck, or no luck at all. Recently, I've experienced the first one.
I have a love-hate relationship with gacha games; the thrill of seeing whenever I receive 3
️, 4
️, or 5
️ is addicting... too addicting, in fact. Even though I maintain my F2P virginity, I feel like I'm craving the lottery-like adrenaline a little too much.
But moments such as those are worth the trouble.
I haven't rolled for a quite some time in Pokemon Masters (no wonder I have 22k gems right now), so I've decided to test my luck; on Master Banner.
Master Banner are pretty rare banners with event-exclusive Master Units: those are not only better overall than most in-game units, but also have the Master Passive Skills, which give large boosts to the entire team, which are getting stronger the more allies share the Theme with the Passive (either Type Speciality or Region)
Now, Master Banners include wholly new "Champion Outfit" for Calem and Serena; those appear to be better Sygna Suits. And, as all Master Units, they have only 1% to be pulled, unlike 2% for all the other 5
️ banner-leading units. But, since I ultimately decided not to pull for them, trying to sum up on some other banners, I've decided to do "one random pull", just for gigs.
For Calem, I got Bugsy (3
️), so nothing special
But for Serena... the screen of Kalos at night made me screech for real, not believing it actually worked.
But, it did - Champion Serena on my first attempt. I felt like all those Poketubers who got Shiny Legendary from Ultra Wormhole on the first encounter. I was, and still am, stoked.
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A question... Is peace and harmony in life too much to ask for?
I know this is not quite the place to ask, but I honestly can't find a better place, especially since my "friends" are apparently defending the bullying-and-toxic kind of behaviors everyone around me loves to present in public and in private life.
I honestly could write down an entire article about my life situation... But right now I'm feeling under the weather (and not even Pokemon Scarlet/Violet - perhaps the best canon Pokemon games in terms of plotline - lightened my mood), so maybe one day, one day...
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It is a really tough question to answer; but what could assist would be journalling. Journalling can help quite a bit in dealing with hardships and helps you to strategize on what route to take so that you can tackle a situation. It can assist you to chisel you into the person you want to be one day. A suggestion is also to use a self-coaching model (you will see on google) to assess the situations, so you can form strategies that are suitable to you and what feels right to you
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The games' not out yet... And many websites, including YouTube, are full of spoilers.
While I don't mind spoilers like: "Oh, this Pokemon's gonna get a new evolution/form", or "That plot-irrelevant characters will be one of the Gym Leaders", or just soundtracks, the spoilers about plot, ESPECIALLY those including end-game twists... I HATE THEM WILL ALL MY HEART
So imagine my reaction, when I listen to Scarlet's & Violet's soundtrack (which, side note, it slaps (at least to me)), only for a brief moment when one OST switches to another on the playlist, when I was awaiting to see what OST it is... and seeing top comment with a MASSIVE, MIND-TWISTING END-GAME SPOILER ABOUT MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS! WITHOUT ANY WARNING!!!
And it's not like I entered the comment section to see comments, it just popped up with the OST.
I was completely NOT prepared for this... And I'll never see them in the same light ever again...
Which is, is, I... I wanna have that person's fingers cut off and mouth stitched!
Because you SHOULDN'T MASSIVELY SPOIL GAMES THAT MILLIONS OF PLAYERS AROUND THE WORLD ARE EAGERLY WAITING FOR, THAT HAVEN'T COME OUT YET, JUST BECAUSE YOU WERE SOME GODDAMM BETA TESTER!
...i don't think i'll recover from this disappointment till christmas, I'd say...
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Spoilers to Scarlet/Violet
SpoilerAfter hearing that Tyranitar will have a Paradox form (either Past or Future Form), I couldn't resist but to see it, and... and...
SpoilerOh, my, GOD.
It's so BADASS - looks almost like Armored Tyranitar from Insurgence, but with more armor, and green spikes.
If to trust the leaks about typing and stat spread, it will have Rock/Electric typing, the same HP, Attack and Defense, but only 70 Special Attack, 84 Special Defense, and 72 Speed. That means its' BST is only 570, which is by no means bad, but it's not the 600 BST normal Tyranitar has. Yet, seeing that all Paradox Pokemon have 570 BST, including those based on other Pseudolegendary and Legendary Pokemon (like Salamence, Hydreigon, Suicune, Virizon), and likes of Delibird and Jigglypuff, I think this was to be intended - they would be an equivalent of Ultra Beasts (but cooler)
And about the typing... I think Rock/Electric is a bit better defensively than Rock/Dark:
- Rock/Electric has 4 weaknesses (one of them being x4), and 5 resistances
- Rock/Dark has 7 weaknesses (one of them being x4), 6 resistances and a immunity
Offensively they fare rather similarily, with Rock/Dark having a slight edge in "how well they fare against Pokemon in general".
Whenever Paradox Tyranitar will be better than Johtonian Tyranitar will depend on the Ability; Sand Stream helps normal Tyranitar being more bulky specially, and makes it a necessary stable of Sandstorm teams.
If Paradox Tyranitar doesn't have Sand Stream, it means that specially it's gonna be quite fragile by comparison. Plus all Psyhical Electric moves which are widely accessible... suck.
But the Pokemon looks badass
And that's what matters
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One question I have, to which I have absolutely no logical nor satisfactory answer, and I wish to know if it even exists.
To warn you, this is about the latest episode of Pokémon Journeys
SpoilerI've seen SO MANY comments where others were whining and crying about Ash's Lucario being defeated and that now Ash won't defeat Leon for sure... All their "opinions" and "analyses" are more pathetic than political campaigns and public discussions in Poland. And trust me, I know what I say.
Does the entire Pokémon fandom, like, share a single living braincell, or are they actually that stupid? Everyone that pays just a little bit of focus on plot and anime rules knows that Ash's ace was, and still is, Pikachu - even in situations with him having objectively stronger Pokémon, namely Charizard and Greninja. And he's currently Ash's strongest in PCS; defeating Steven's Mega Metagross even without Mega, and almost singlehandedly putting down Cynthia's Gastrodon and Spiritomb, and he could take out at least one or two more Pokémon was it not for Destiny Bond.
And even if Lucario WAS the ace... does no one know the one unwritten, fundamental rule existing in, like, almost every sport event? That nothing is certain until the very end? As someone who was watching Inazuma Eleven from years to come, even before knowing what "anime" is, that rule has been engraved in my mind and soul; telling me every time that as long as there's even the slightest of slivers of chance, the tiniest amounts of time left, you should try to pursue winning, no matter the circumstances.
I wish to know what the more, ekhm... "human" part of the fandom has to say about the incident. I say that Ash still has a chance - 4 Pokémon left standing against Leon's 3, and Pikachu is completely healthy (I know, he has taken Libero-boosted Scorched Sands, but c'mon, it was not only at the very beginning of the battle and Pikachu is extremely tanky).
So, If you have an opinion and wanna share it, do it.
And, from the bottom of my heart, to all non-believers, a very sincere S.T.F.U!
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S-seriously... will Paldea have ANY new Pokémon which I can say are "bad"?
Because as of right now, all I've seen are intriguing, badass, derpy in a funny way, or so cute I'm getting diabetes just from looking at them.
That includes the new Pokémon from the trailer - at first I thought it was a Paldean Litwick, but... it was an adorable af puppy... which unfortunately I couldn't pet because apparently playing with it causes the exhaustion, lose of consciousness, and even death.
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There's a lotta of opinions about newest Paldean Gym Leader - Iono.
Barring fanbase's whining and lamenting about character, design, personality and voice acting (which, in my opinion, are awesome... or at the very least unique; like c'mon - Gym Leader who's a influencer/V-Tuber? I don't believe that even in fanmade games I found such a combination), the main 'problem' (or should I say 'conundrum') is her... real identity
According to available news, Iono is a character/personality of sorts; a fake persona in fact, just like most (if not all) VTubers have. I don't know if she's just a cyber creation, or also the one with the role poses as her in real life (especially during Gym Battles), but for sure that look and personality isn't the true one, because:
- As I said, many/all VTubers and influencers of similar functioning have their public character changed, differing from their real one, more or less
- Iono's German and Spanish names, Enigmara and E-Nigma come from "enigma", meaning "unknown". And her Italian name, "Kissana" comes from "Chi sarà?" - "Who will it be?". That signifies that no one knows truth about her, at least in the public sphere of things.
The question is... Who IS Iono actually? Who's hiding behind the mask/image of the most electryfing star of Paldean pop-culture?
And, a very popular theory says that Iono is actually... Penny. Yes, you heard me right, the 3rd, shy and timid "rival", being one of the most extravagant and flashy Gym Leaders in the entire Europe? I'd lose my shit if that turned out to be true. But, still, that would be one hell of a plot twist, and a very positive one, because the last mega plot twist GameFreak gave us was a bit... heart-breaking, not gonna lie...
At first I thought since Nemona would lead us through Paldea League, and Arven would "hire" us to help him gather Herba Mystica, Penny would be a key character in hunting down Team Star... only to be revealed as one of the Admins, if not The Head Boss of all fractions. And now... I don't know which would be more sick from story-telling point, but I sure know that I'd rather be proud of her... rather than feeling the urge to break her back in three pieces.
But that'd mean that our passionate chef Arven would be the only "rival" to not have any plot twist/sudden reveal to his character:
- Penny being the one behind the persona of Electric Leader Iono (or Team Star's Head Boss)
- Nemona rumored to be one of Paldea League's Champions
- Arven... has nothing
I, honestly, don't want him to have some super mind-breaking twist (like... using the power of Herba Mystica to turn his Pokemon into Titans and, by controlling them, conquer Paldea Region, and then the entire world), but something as impactful, but without breaking immensions. Maybe have some other important character, like some truly competent Trainer, be revealed as his relative, and then reveal that his lack of talent in battling has caused them/his family to reject him, so he decided to use his cooking skills, and gathered Herba Mystica, to show his value as a human being.
Why do I say it...? Maybe 'cause I love theorizing, and story creation? And I wanna talk about it? So... @SolareInferno, @Evi Crystal, @Q-Jei, anyone?
Anything? Any ideas?
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If there is one... I'm betting on Clavell.
That old man is weirdly silent and peaceful...
I believe that his "Treasure Hunt" is a way to garnet great power in order to accomplish vile goals. But I may be overthinking
Also... What do you mean "beyond my understanding"? This isn't complex, is it?
This theory is but a fast one.
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Why? If I was wrong, but the actual concept was even better, then that means I have to hone my prediction skills, but I get a new trope to analyze
But if the actual concept was objectively worse, then that means I'm better than I thought.
It's a win-win, sorta. Panicking and blaming won't help - just pushing toward the future.
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I swear to all what is dear to me - if you ever call a character like N, or Taka "villain", I'm gonna come to your house and snap your fucking neck by 360 degrees!
How come people still cannot get the fact that not everyone who's fighting the main protagonist is villain? Those are antagonists, because they are anti-protagonists; it's THAT simple!
Not every antagonist is villain. Villain is a creature which commits vile (evil) acts. There are antagonists which aren't villains, like afromentioned N and Taka - they are actually friendly toward MC and, in some cases, create a bond between. But purely because of their association with evil teams and the fact both them and MCs have different, contradictionary goals, they are forced to battle each other.
But, in the same vein, not every villain is antagonist - some of them are PROTAGONISTS. Perhaps the most known examples are Light Yagami from Death Note, Momonga from Overlord or Frisk/Chara from Genocide Route Undertale. They all commit acts cruel and evil, while having either little to no remorse about their acts, have no actual, tragic or sympathetic reason to act that way, or both. Because of that, they are classified as THE EVIL, despite being the main characters of their journeys. While the main antagonists (in those cases, L and Sans especially) are the defacto heroes - the good guys fighting the bad guys.
I'm ranting about it, because as writer and creator, I'm getting mad about that cardinal, in my eyes, mistake. I know that people might not know about anti-heroes (characters, usually morally good, doing bad things for noble reasons) or anti-villains (characters doing bad things for causes they believe to be noble, yet those are far more complex than one might think, or the true cause is obscured from their sight), but for Arceus' sake, STOP CALLING NICE, KIND CHARACTERS "VILLAINS"!