GreyShadow

Probably should have said this earlier but as of a few months ago pokemon ravensong has ceased all development (not that there was really any at all lol) and the friend I began working on it with has ghosted me completely, I have no idea why he just up and blocked me on everything. Oh well. Sucks but that’s my life ,

y’know. And could have used a friend in these dark days.  Gotta love the good ol’ USA being awful, just so awful. To anyone that sees this and needs someone to talk to just shoot me a message. I’m here for anyone that needs it! Hope everyone’s doing better than I am these days. God, getting diagnosed with diabetes, the government trying to destroy the LGBTQIA+ community, AND having the same shit lick I always have, could anything else go wrong….. y’know what don’t answer that, I’ve come to learn that when I’m right, I wish I wasn’t. And when I’m wrong, I’m still right about the worst part of whatever it was. It’s like a curse being right as often as I am, I’m not the smartest or most interesting person but damn if I’m not good at pattern recognition within people’s actions ughhh. Well sorry for being so negative, I’ll leave you with a nice character speech I’m going to come up with off the top of my head in my sleep deprived state, that should be fun right?!

”In a world that values light and flair, where being showy and extravagant is the norm and the only way to be accepted, where the actions of the few supersede the needs of the masses, in a world like this it’s the shadows and the silent that more often then not serve the best interests of those same masses. The broken and the damned, the lost and the lonely, they are all too aware of the nature of this place, for they have nowhere they fit, a puzzling puzzle piece lost in a sea of legos and action figures. People show you their true selves in the darkest moments, when they do trust your eyes. For like me you’re lonely, like me you’re silent, like me you are reviled. The masks we wear are masks of color and life, but we are anything but alive. 
sometimes the strongest among us found our strength in the simplest ways, for me it’s because I had no other choice. I became strong because I had to. But I do not subjugate those weaker than I, my strength is used to protect those around me. A shadow ever clinging to the light, ever silent, yet there all the same.” 
 

this probably would have been a nice character moment within project ravensong given I was thinking of my character while writing it, alas it shall never come to pass.

anyway hope everyone’s doing well! Have a good…. However long it takes me to write something here again lol

Hey everyone I’d say how’s it going but I honestly don’t expect anyone to respond, it’s cool tho. Hopefully everyone is doing well. I’m ok-ish, I think I’ve gotten to a point where I know I’ll never REALLY be 100% ok.

annnnnyyyyywayyyy. 
this is another request for some help, again can’t pay worth a damn I’m broke as hell. Passion project and all that, anyone who’s got any talent regarding anything when making fan games is welcome. Message me or respond here and we’ll talk. I don’t have any social media anymore sooooo, yea communication will be a bitch but we can figure it out. 
 

beyond that however I just wanna say have a great day/night. Stay safe, and keep bein awesome 

So, I’m still alive. 
mentally I’m a little shaken by recent events. I live in the USA, so I’m sure people can figure it out. Being an enby isn’t the easiest thing here even where I live being generally pretty accepting. I got bullied off TikTok years ago and HAD to delete Instagram this week cuz it was nasty as hell on there. 
 

so I’m alive that’s at least a positive.

to my main point, been mulling this over a while and I’ve come to the conclusion that I need some help, I don’t really know where to post this or even exactly what to ask since it’s not a 100% gonna happen thing, me and a friend have been working on and off on our own HIGHLY ambitious pokemon fan game, we have nothing past the planning stage because it’s just the two of us and I’m the only person handling the entire creative side of it, so more to the point, are there any sprite artists and musicians who would be willing to help us out, anyone is welcome really, just over 18 years old please. I can’t pay you anything it will be entirely free labor. A passionate labor of love though. I’ve a general idea and overall story beats planned to a degree, I could use some help with the fine tuning as it’s definitely unique in the way that you aren’t allowed to catch Pokémon or even learn new moves it’s about the characters especially since they already had their major journeys. It’s pretty dark in a lot of places and I don’t plan to shy away from that stuff. If anyone is interested in helping me and my friend and by some strike of luck are also willing to put up with the fact that the story is essentially mine and mine alone. I guess message me or respond to this and we can figure out a way to communicate. FYI discord is a no go, I really dislike it. I’d be more inclined to give out my personal phone number over that lol. 
 

TLDR: want some help with a possible fan game, but the story is completely under my jurisdiction. Open to criticism and possible changes but need more people on the music and artwork side of things. And I’ll need to talk to my friend about this as hell want to know and will more then likely be the person responsible for relaying messages back and forth between devs. 
if you want info on the game before deciding there isn’t much rn as it’s in a strange transition period and I’m debating a lot of choices. All devs will be included in the game as trainers/ npcs depending on what you want. 

I’m still alive. 
 

ANNNNYYYWAYY…

I uh really don’t have any updates. I am however VERY BORED. Anyone reading this hope you’re having a great day/night. Take care of yourselves! 

I live. 
 

I know I’ve been pretty inactive but I’m not great with people (shudders) 

nor do I really know what to say soooooo

ive been replaying rejuvenation again, and I’m having a great time. Just finished my 3rd run of desolation. Ngl debug is super fun to mess around with, I just like giving myself pokemon I otherwise wouldn’t get till much later and since one of my favorite Pokémon is silvally I just like starting with a type null. (Plus being able to edit its type and stats via the move text/mon text scripts is fun as hell) but umm back to my main point, once again absolutely loving the game the story the characters everything. To the point where I just cannot force myself to do renegade route. I just can’t do it lol. I suppose we can chalk it up to my lack of irl friends and the fact that Melia and crew honestly Feel like people I’d wanna hang out with (just like in a few years I AM 24) 

But yea honestly the rejuvenation and desolation mayyyy have ruined every other fan game for me, because nothing comes close to the experience these have. I guess I just wanted to share my adoration and love for these games, as someone who’s spent the better part of this last year trying (and failing) to create a story for a game myself. I just do not have the tech skills to do it and the one friend that does just cannot commit to actually helping lol. Sigh so many ideas that will most likely never be realized. Sorry I’m rambling now. I uh haven’t actually spoken to anyone in like 2 days now lol, lotta thoughts not a lot of people to listen.

Hey, new here. Been visiting the site for YEARS. Glad to have made an account finally (why tf did it take me so long, idk) anyway. Hope everyone’s doing well. Just thought I’d say hello (I’m so sorry I suck at the whole people thing)