Okay, here I am again, expanding some more!
Next on my little list... Raziel cheated on Maddie :c
Okay, first off, this guy cheated on ME just last year.
I told her!!
Second off... well, I explained it to a friend on facebook, so lemme copy/paste:
"she came back, the he did, yadda yadda, she stopped putting out for a little while and she starts hearing rumors that he fingered so and so and fucked some Asian chick a week later
and she's all, "eh, I'll just forget about it since I have no way of knowing it's true"
so when Richard tells her the asian bitch is at raz's place
she and I start walking over thre & richard & his like 5 middle school whores follow us cuz they wanna watch
raz walks out of his damn house with this (ugly) asian girl and says, "What's wrong baby?"
Needless to say they broke up. So she's depressed."
SO YEAH, I WANNA PUNCH 'IM IN THE FACE.
OkayNext:
Diet/excercise for a week and giving up on it!
Yeah, so I decided to search "Thinspiration" on Tumblr to see if people actually thought pictures of starving children were inspirational and made them want to be thin, and got really self-conscious.
NEEDLESS TO SAY, I freaked out and did some jogging in the woods then came home and did what totals out to lik 300 jumping jacks, 100 crunches, 25 push-ups, 10 burpies, 50 squats, 40 leg lifts, and around then I hurt too much to move.
"I'll do this every day now!"
Never did it again.
I DID try to diet though, which I broke really fast because I smoked, and well, inhibitions aren't as strong while high.
From then on I just decided to be more aware of what I eat, which I've kept up on (excluding last night).
Next: My Tumblr was deleted :c
I had over 400 followers because idk, which is more than like 80% of Tumblr
(Most blogs hardly get any at all, though it's NOTHING compared to some popular blogs, who have like thousands... but people with that many are a very small minority.)
And I had two blogs, so I was like, "Oh hey, I'll just delete one because I don't want to run it anymore and keep using the other!"
Unfortunately the blog I was trying to delete was my first one...
So instead of deleting the blog, I accidentally deleted my whole account e~e
Lost over 400 followers, around 1.6k posts, over 3k liked posts, and the 77 blogs I was following.
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Yeah so that was a sad event.
Hmm. What else is there.
Ooh, I smoked some weed laced with Oxycontin last Friday.
Shit was SO cash.
Instead of a normal high or whatever, it was like a high + Artificial Happy.
Oxy is an opiate, so yeah, that's what it's supposed to do, I guess.
I'd do it again, because I'll try anything 6 times.
I hardly have like any bud left though, and I'm strapped for cash, so I need to come up with $20 if I want another G...
Okay okay okay, last thing worth talking about.
I don't think they're going to let me back into my old school, which is the only thing I've wanted from them for 2 years now.
Basically I'm in an ED program which has smaller classes and an extra adult.
It helps kids stay on task and not get left behind and is less stressful or whatever.
But it's not at my base school.
Anyways, I wanted to come here originally because that would mean avoiding my stalker, and avoiding the people who were still bullying me about the thing with Thomas.
Hooray!
See, thing is though, Thomas moved last year and the stalker GRADUATES this year.
Great time for me to go back, yeah?
My teachers don't think so.
Basically, since I was admitted into the ED program, I got my own IEP (Individualized Education Program) team. They help to make decisions in my best interest, and I don't necesarily have to like those decisions.
Every IEP meeting needs my case manager (ED teacher who leads the meetings), another ED teacher, one mainstream teacher, my clinician, my counselor, my mom and myself. Also, if I was one of those kids who had issues with the law/coming to school, my probation officer.
They consider things my other teachers say on the matter at hand, and what the people at the meeting think themselves.
Anyways, apaprently I am the ONLY person in that room who is going to support me going back to my base school.
I DO HAVE A PLAN, THOUGH.
I'm going to be an adult.
I already have a list of things I'm going to say, which means I'm coming prepared.
Adult-like.
I already have good points to make, which means I've put some serious preperation into it.
Adult-like.
I already have a fallback all-or-nothing bottom line if they're still not convinced, which is really well put together.
Adult-like.
I have NOTHING to defend myself with concerning why I did so well the first semester and horribly the second.
Child-like.
That's basically where all the anti-Anthony's-wishes sentiment is coming from.
I've proved myself to be inconsistent, and I've let everyone know I don't care about high school, am not going to college, and refuse to put forth an effort outside of the bare minimum.
Basically they all say I'm smarter and have more potential than most kids, but since I lack conviction and consistency, I'm not ready for mainstream.
Not
ready
for
mainstream.
The education style I was in for 9 damn years, before I came to this God-forsaken place.
The place dubbed the "Retard center" because we have smaller classes.
The place where I have less friends than I did at Braddock because there are so many kids with social disabilities that I frankly don't want to deal with.
The place where, frankly, most people are pretty unattractive.
The place where I have to deal with people because I'm not mean enough to tell them I don't want them to talk to me because they make me uncomfortable and couldn't socialize with a sock drawer.
Fuck this place, man. I am SO glad I have classes/friends in the mainstream setting here. I just wish my other classes were that way, too.
Ooh, before I go, pros of going to braddock?
I can walk there
Not the "Retard center"
Hardly any social nubs in comparison
I already have friends there
Not nearly as stessful
I can socialize freely (stay after school every day with friends, walk home ~10)
Not here.