Yuki

Okayyyy, page 6 and it's time to partyyyyyyyyy <3 Too tired for someone who slept a solid 6 hours last night. That's like 2-3 more than usual, so what the hell? Today is 4/20 <3 Gonna fucking party after school. This is my first block today though, so it's like hours from now Let's see... I brought some Robitussin, Sickmen is bringing Triple Cs, and weed will be abundant @ the group's place. I think I'll pocket some Triple C's and Robotrip/get smoked out. I'm excited Joan Jett []: Mmmm. Had so many party-like GIFs that it was hard to choose the two I just put up there. btw fuck puberty and being a man First I just had to start shaving my 'stache Then, my goatee Now those two, my sideburns, my beard, and my neckbeard. asidjodljiosadoiasjd Burned myself straightening my hair this morning OKAY ON TO ACTUAL EVENTS because I have stuff to say lololo things happened. My last update was on monday, I don't think anything really happened... Tuesday however, Sickmen showed up in the morning then disapeared before 2nd period. That night, Maddie calls to tell me her parents have been reading her text messages, and took away her laptop because some things on the internet might be an "emotional trigger". Also apparently Etenburger had talked to her mom and said they should consider a transfer to a different school because since coming here "Maddie has been rude and abrupt". Uhm what the hell? No she hasn't. Maybe once, but that was because everyone AROUND her was being rude and loud so she told them to shut up and pay attention to the teacher, to which the teacher responded "Maddie! That was rude. Apologize!" Bull shit. Anyways also Etenbooger said that Maddie's parents should check her wrists because she might be hiding cuts under all her bracelets. WHAT THE FUCK. She's worn those since day 1 at Woodson, hasn't cut herself in months, and she just fucking likes bracelets. Also that's pretty rude and abrupt of you Mr. Etenboob. So I promise her I'll talk to him with her the next day. Not an hour later, Ellie calls and tells me she tried to run away but her mom stopped her by taking the keys. She's crying and I ask why and she says she can't stand her brother, he ruined her life growing up and he ruins it whenever he comes to visit. Her brother's autistic and often ahs violent fits. Also her parents are being crazy restrictive and she's incredibly stressed over cramming for her GED so she can graduate. She tells me her psychiatrist had taken her off her mood stabilizer because one of the sideeffects can sometimes be headaches, and the reason she had to leave school was because of intense migraines that made it so she couldn't function in school and she had to have surgery for it. So anyways I eventually calm her down and we decide to hang out Thursday. LOL, Wednesday. Kay, talked to Etenburg, explained how CRAP the CEDSS program is and talked about how it's unfair compared to mainstream. I was surprised that he was as receptive as he was, which pleased me. He said that he had a meeting to go to so he'd have to shoo us out, but he wanted us to come up with a few specific points detailing how CEDSS is unfair. I came up with 12 bullets, and each had about 3 sub-bullets because they fit under the same category. Showed him the last 3, and then the bell rang so I left to go across the street. Ohhhh, across the streeeeeeeeet. It was raining and Maggie was in detention so of course the group was nowhere to be found because it's centered around Maggie/Jeremiah. Roach and I went to look around for them, and I asked if they'd be at Vicky's house (since Jeremiah had been living there, having been kicked out from his own.) Roach says he's not to be seen near Vicky's house incase her mom is there, so I should go. I walk up, knock on the door, and Vicky's mom (who I'd never met before) opens the door. "Is Vicky home?" "Depends on who's asking." "Uhh, I'm looking for Jeremiah." She looks at me with a blank stare. "Jeremiah does not live here, neither is he WELCOMED here. Leave." And she slams the damn door in my face. So Roach goes roaming for them and I head to McDonalds to see if they showed up there. They didn't, but Emily's group is there. Emily=scary 6 foot something blonde chick who supposedly gets in fights all the time. Hayat=Obnoxious but nice to me, pretty preppy but she smokes weed/cigs. Sarah=Reputation of being a huge slut. Random girl=What? Kay, so there are two guys from school sitting at a table not too far away and Hayat's like "Sarah, you should go ask if one of them wants to get sucked off." I'd heard about Sarah's reputation, but I'd never seen it in action. She legitimately stands up, walks over to their table, (one was out to smoke, so it was just his friend) and says, "Hi " "uh hi" "You're pretty hot, you know that?" "Uhh thanks." "Would you like a blowjob? " "... no thanks, I'm good." So she goes out and asks his friend, who says yes apparently, though I wasn't outside to hear the conversation. So they go to the guys bathroom and I guess they're doing their own thing. (the rest of us are laughing our fucking asses off.) The McDonalds Manager Person goes in like just past 5 minutes later and idk how but apparently Le Manager saw that there were 2 people in a stall, because the door slams open and we look up to see Sarah break some kind of olympic fucking record bolting out of that McDonalds and away from the parking lot. It was the funniest fucking thing I'd ever seen. ^Too late for Sarah^ Anyways she and Roach left their backpacks (idk where the hell Roach disapeared to) so Hayat takes hers and I take his. He's high as hell, (too much to notice his phone's vibrating apparently) so I have to call him to divulge his whereabouts. He says to meet him at Jerry's Subs & Pizza, which is on the corner of the shopping center, opposite end from McDonalds. So I walk all the way the fuck over there, and he isn't even there. I wait for 5 minutes, and am standing up to leave when I hear my name being called, so I turn around and see Maggie! She's just gotten out of detention, so I caught her up on everything. I call Roach again and he says he's walking up from Marshalls so to go that way. Maggie and I do so, and meet him around Best Buy. He says he found Jerry/Danny/Jose/Alex and his friend @ Marshalls so we head that way & catch up with them. I ask Jerry if he can get me some Robitussin cuz I wanted to try robotripping and I have money, I just need him since he's 18. He pulls a bottle out of his pocket and hands it to me, and I'm beyond grateful(greatful?) They tell me how much I should eat before/during (not much before, but I won't even watn to during) and what to expect, etc. Should be interesting. I'm to take half the bottle. I g2g cuz my mom's almost here to pick me up and I always try to distance myself from the group of grungy kids smoking cigarettes when my mother can see me. I talk to her about how we're about to study punk in music sampler, and say I'm already into it. "Oh yeah? What bands?" "Oh, you know. Sum 41, Blink182, Yellowcard. They're not exactly punk but they're close." She scoffs. "That isn't punk." And when we get home she gives me (and I counted) exactly 50 CDs of "real punk" to listen to. Then she mentions she used to go to concerts all the time when she was my age. I asked her about her first one... "My friend and I had tickets to Jane's Addiction downtown, and her mom was gonna drive us. I was about 15 at the time. Problem was, it was a schoolnight and I hadn't asked my parents, because I'd decided to just wing it. I get on my cute punk clothes (because I used to be cool) and go downstairs all dressed up, nonchallantly place my ticket on the counter and start rummaging through the ticket for supplies. Your grandmother walks up, 'Where the hell do you think YOU'RE going?!' 'Uhh, to the Jane's Addiction concert. Duh?' 'Who said you could go??!' 'Dad?' 'FRAAAAAANK!' 'Hum?' 'Did you say your daughter could go to this concert on a SCHOOLNIGHT?!' 'I uhhhm, don't remember.' 'GOD DAMMIT FRANK, LISTEN TO YOUR CHILDREN WHEN THEY TALK TO YOU.'" I laughed sooooo hard at all that. The dailogue and the fact that my grandpa has a tendency to not really listen and just grunt assent, so my mom's plan worked So yeah that was cool. Then I tried to listen to "real punk" and it hurt my earssss. Anyways, come Thursday, I find out Sickmen had actually been invited to get high by some people he'd never talked to on Tuesday, so that's where he was. In the clouds. On Triple C and Weed. WHY THE FUCK DOES THAT NOT FUCKING HAPPEN TO ME. And then I hung out with Ellie after school, she picked me up, we got lunch, went to the woods behind my house, and walked around for 3 hours and just talked. Then we went home and my mom was watching a VHS of some sort of video of ehr sophomore year in highschool. I think it was just like a video-yearbook minus including every person and all that. Just the polls and questions and like clips of sporting events and the plays and interviewing people. My mom showed up twice, and she really was a punk! This was during '88/'89. Oh god the hair back then. Oh god the fashion back then. Oh gooooooood. The video was really cool though. My mom used to be a cross-country runner apparently. Then she showed me a picture of her at the first Lollapalooza ever, she was in the newspaper with her friend. And then I was on the computer before I like passed out from exhaustion after having actually excercized for once in my life.

LOL this is why we are friends

Definately The Gang.

Well we'd need the game to be finished for that.

I was around last season and am actually one of the people in charge of leaders and stuff this season so I'm not sure if it would be "cheating" to help out too much xP

My download took 3 minutes o-o

Right click the colume thing on your taskbar. "Open Volume Mixer". You have the option of muting individual windows. MASH TAUGHT ME

This is all already incorporated into the beta of the game, the entire thing isn't fleshed out yet. This is what there is so far.

Kay hi, read all the above before starting on this one, instead of saying "HI LET ME SCROLL UP TO READ!" Game changerrrrr. Uh so the teacher is gonna come around and check on what we have done so far for this chapter. AHAHAHHAHAAHAHDAHHDASDOADSADAKDA I haven't done anything and there wereeee... 5 assignments in this chapter. Good impressions on the teacher-folk, I make them. In other news, Active Posts 962 (1.92 per day) Reborn Rupees: 334,181 (#1) Almost 1k active posts ;D Aaaaand, #1 Reborn Rupees using hax. Oh god teacher is aware I'm not working again. I think at some point he started caring and now it's a passive-aggressive sort of thing. He just picked the book we're supposed to be working from off my desk and didn't even look at me and I just continued typing out the situation and now he's checking everyone's work except mine Been really getting into Punk Rock and Punk. I should have been born 10 years before I was :c Experiencing the end of the 80s, all of the 90s, and the rest up till now woulda been jawesome. My honorary yearssssss. But instead I was born in 95. Anybody else into that general genre? Sum 41, Blink 182, Yellowcard, Plus 44 fit the bill for Punk Rock. Punk was more The Offsprings, Beastie Boys, Nirvana. Both of 'em are delicious. Legit just want to run away for the drama of it sometimes, because everything is so boring. Pretty sure when I'm out of the house & things slow down I'll decide I'm done. Already feel that way, but I wouldn't do anything while I'm still in contact with all these people. Not fair to them. Yellowcard xoxo Okay, now to recount actual events I guess... I forget if anything happened monday s: Tuesday,(and I thought I'd already journal'd about this...) a new kid showed up in my english class 10 minutes before it ended. His name is [censored from potential internet stalkers] but he goes by his last name. He's. So. Fucking. Attractive. And he's like got good manners and he's respectful. I never realized how HOT manners/being respectful can be. Or maybe I did at some point, but my crowd just sort of made me forget about it. Anyways. Then he shows up in my 5th period class, and Maddie and I invite him over to sit with us in music. We all talk blahblah invite him to lunch, he gets lost when we're seperated, we see him the next day, he's in 2 more of my classes. And now we're all buddiessssss. And he's straight btw so I'll just sort of lust from afar. "I have hair too! We should be friends." ~Intermission since I'm trying to be chronological and need to add some GIFs to this post~ Wednesday after school, uhm. Went across the street like always, was with Maddie/Raziel(her boyfriend, my ex) asked Jeremiah about getting some Mollies, he referred me to Gabe, Gabe said he could get me some if I brought him money. Raz and I walked Maddie to her therapist appointment. He and I were alone on the walk back, so I asked about mollies. He said not to trust Gabe because he fucks everyone over and doesn't give the money back. He offers to get some for me, but he needs to talk to his dealer, because they haven't talked in ages since Raz quit drugs in general. Then he asked me if I have a boyfriend atm and I was like "nah flying solo, got the friends w/ benefits thing going on with Omar but he's been outta town for a few weeks." Then he like casually suggests we do something sexual in the woods. I'm like "nah I'm good lolo" out loud but "um you're my friend's boyfriend you slut that BETTER have been as casual a JOKE as it came off." in my head. I initially didn't tell Maddie about it because I didn't want to cause an awkward "believe my boyfriend or my friend" situation because he WOULD lie about it. Anyways, then Thursday. I remember nothing about Thursday. Let's seeee... oh yeah I talked with my clinician all of Geometry because emotional issues are a great way to skip class for free. Yeah that's pretty much it for Thursday. And theeeeeeen, Friday. Eventful. English with Hottie, that was cool. Slept with my head propped up on my hand while we read The Great Gatsby. Return periods were 1&2 so I just went back to English after break, and then Programming where I perused the internet. Next was Music Sampler, and Friday is Music Friday in there so the only classwork that day is to share a song. I shared because I like that song. Maddie Hottie and I all talked then we went to the lunch line. We were like, "ew it's GrossPizza day." "Lol we should go to Wendys, it's just across the street." "Lol watch us get caught. Everybody does it but they only ever seek out the CEDSS kids because Etenburg is an anal ButtMonger." "Nah everybody does it." So we go across the street and get some Wendys (two baconators and a frosty between the three of us) and see ~15 people doing the same. We come back to school and eat it on campus. I check my phone, we were off grounds for a total of 7 minutes. It's a good lunch, we all talk, have fun, and the food is much better than the shit they try to pass off as pizza @ school. We go to class. 20 minutes into 7th period, a security guard comes to escort me to the office. I'm like WTF really? All 3 of us get Saturday School and a call to our parents. Stupid as fuck. 7 minutes off grounds, I ASKED them to search me to confirm I didn't bring anything illegal on-campus. They did, I was clean. And fucking after school, I get the text I totally expected from my mother, which I think was totally reasonable mind you, "Get on the bus and go straight home. No hanging out today." I ask one of the other kids we went across the street with whether they got in trouble, and they were like "lol no I never have." So these maisntream kids go across the street at least 3 times a week during lunch, and apparently most of them never get seeked out for punishment. CEDSS kids do it once, saturday school. Fucking ridiculous. We were in a group. Why were the only 3 kids not in mainstream handpicked as the rules-breakers? Because CEDSS is full of asshats. When Maddie comes out though she's crying and I hug her and I'm like what's up babe and apparently Mr. Etenburg when on speaker with Maddie's mom was like "Her BOYFRIEND, RAZIEL, is in jail for having ILLEGAL DRUGS on his person." And Raz had told MAddie he'd quit, and her boyfriend was in jail now, adn she comes out and explained this to Emily first, and Emily said she'd heard Raz was cheating on Maddie, so Maddie comes to me and is like "HE LIED AND HE WAS CHEATING AND HE STILL DID DRUGS AND HE'S IN JAIL AND I HATE HIM" Except she actually is like head over heels for him so all of that was tearing her apart. When I get home, I get a call from my mother detailing punishment. I'm to clean the 4 bathrooms by the end of the night. Pretty damn reasonable if you ask me, though I didn't think what I did was at ALL worth punishing over, especially on top of the school punishment. My parents usually ground for a month (no electronics, friends, anything really) so I was pleased with 1 day of punishment at first. And then I started cleaning skuzzy toilets. Ewwwwww. I ask my mom about it, trying to divulge what cleaning toilets would do to dissuade me from crossing the street any more than saturday school, considering saturday school had already convinced me not to ever do it again already. "I like to reinforce school punishments at home." "But this isn't really worth punishing... I was across the street for 7 minutes. Isn't this a bit much for that? Saturday school, taking away a planned social time, and 4 bathrooms?" "Doesn't amtter how long. You broke a school policy. I wanted to take everything away for a month but your father complained so you're cleaning bathrooms instead." Not too much more of that before I give up trying to communicate with my mother on anything ever. On to actual Saturday School... Woke up way earlier than anybody should have to on a Saturday, with only 20 minutes to jump in the shower, get dressed, and have my mom drive me to school. Like it starts at 8 and I woke up at 7:40. 'twas an adventure. I go to Entrance 1 like the letter and assistant principal said I should, and sit there, having arrived at 8:00 on the dot. Maddie shows up at 8:01. We sit there till 8:11. Maddie and I both skipped breakfast so we joke about going across the street to Wendys again. Then this guy walks out and he's like "Yeah no. Haven't you learned anything?" And the imaginary crickets chirped really loudly to help relieve the awkward tension. "You were supposed to come straight to room E208." "Uhh we were told Entrance 1." "Guess I'll have to hold you after 10 more minutes to make up for lost time, then." asdosadkspskdsopa okay I guess. Rules were, no talking, electronics, or putting your head down/sleeping. I'd slept like 3 hours, and 4 the night before... so I slept for 15 minutes with my head propped on my hand and my bangs over my eyes. And then there was break time. I didn't know Saturday School had a break? Okay I guess. Maddie and I had 8 minutes (weird number, not rounded at all) to do whatever and come abck so we got some candy from a vending machine,a nd walked outside to circle back towards E208. There was a 5k going on so there were lots of people. We saw a stand with food set up for these running peeps so of course we were like "ooh mine" and grabbed a bunch. The Saturday School dude totally judged us, but munching on stuff kept us awake and not-hungry so it was cool. We NEEDED it, I tell you! So yeah we survived. Sunday I WANTED to hang out @ Fair City Mall but I had a therapist appointment @ 11 and dinner @ my grandmas house so My therapist is concerned I've taken a passive stance on everything and let people dish out stuff and I just say "okay" or take it. Which I don't think is entirely true because with my parents we hardly ever interact, and everybody else I just sort of do what she said I guess? But since my mom continues to ignore my requests to go to the DMV to try for my permit, and I don't ask for an allowance or something (money's tight atm) I'm just being passive and rolling with the punches apparently. Okayyyy. Mentioned this to my mom she actually got really pissed & defensive. Klol woman. Hmmm this post feels sort of lengthy. OH YEAH now that Raz is in jail idk where I'm gonna get my damn mollies. /ragequit

Conform or speak out for what I believe in and get nowhere/in trouble. Play dead donkey or try to make progress and dig myself a hole. ~Everybody's life, everywhere, at any point in time~

They're not that bad. I never so much as implied that.

http://mightyenas.tumblr.com/post/21122295219

http://gokunt.tumblr.com/post/21062018542 even more

Well, that begs the question of what is the "Traditional" way of parenting? ;o I'm fully aware of what sort of thing would/would not put me "in my place", and to be honest I don't want that for obvious reasons. I like my current lifestyle. The discrepancy here is that I'm no good at doing things I don't like/wouldn't benefit me. I keep to myself at home, so I make a big fuss here on the forums when I'm actually parented. I don't talk to them unless I'm answering or asking a question (usually as non-intrusive as "did you take your antibiotics?" or "can I have a ride somewhere?") so there's no communication, I can effectively shut them out. I stay in my room, there's no need to parent a child who's either out or in his room supposedly not doing stuff he's not supposed to.

Rofl it's funny because of how true it is <w< I can't fathom what my mother would do if she ever read my journal ._.