Haven't updated in a few days due to random episodes of depression, but I'm currently too apathetic to feel either way on the subject!
I really want to change my trainer sprite and make it all pretty, but nyehhh I don't want to spend any $R.
MUST BE IN THE TOP 10 RICHEST MEMBERS OF REBORN GROUP.
Currently #9.
Today is my sister and my grandmother's birthday.
I've gained like 50 followers on tumblr in the past week alone, currently standing at 170ish... amiinternetcoolyet?
I also installed missing-e, and tumblr tried to tell me to uninstall it since they didn't endorse the add-on.
NOPE.
-rebel-
I miss Omar
Everyone annoys the fuck out of me, just by talking to me or trying to on a daily basis.
I'm going to have my friend cut my hair soon, because I'm so done with the emo bang.
Hard to manage, haironface=pimples, I can't rock it half as well anymore, I've developed an awkward part in my hair that defeats the purpose, and I'm just too old for such a juvenile cut, now.
I want contacts
I need to have a physical
I need a enw prescription for my glasses
I'm probably just going to get new glasses instead of contacts, because I can't poke myself in the eye.
I have an IEP meeting on February 10th at 10:30, and I'm going to have to like describe what I need to continue my schoolding and not want to kill myself over it, and what plans I have for the future, when my plans are literally to spend all my money on visiting Italy, Australia, Japan, Holland, and then die before I reach age 30, because fuck knows I've never been in it for the long haul.
I almost took up smoking again last week, but then I realized it was stupid so I didn't finish the pack.
I'm falling behind in school.
I can't stay awake 6th, 7th, or 8th period.
Staying up till 12/later is killing me.
I wouldn't go to sleep earlier if I had the chance though.
This is a depressing entry
Season of Love by the Shiny Toy Guns just came on my playlist. This song makes me happy.
I'm halfway out of monster already and school started 67 minutes ago.
This shit isn't going to carry me through 8th period, or even 6th.
I despise people who fit the gay stereotype, because being a minority, it reflects on me too, and all other gay people. Heterosexuals are privileged to live in a world where they are the "norm", and it's not like I'm saying they should feel bad for it, but the thing with systematic advantages like that is you need to be aware so as to be sensitive to people without that advantage. Heterosexism is annoying, and so is white privilege. Make sure to check yourself.
I'm white, and even though I don't want it to be this way, I have many subtle advantages over people of color, and that's what white privilege is. It's not fair, and people need to be aware and not take advantage of their race without realizing it. Here, read this article. http://en.wikipedia....White_privilege
It's okay to be a male feminist, that just means you're breaking boundaries for equality between sexes.
10 minutes till class ends.
Ramble ramble ramble.
I feel ugly all the time but people tell me I'm not so I act confident about my looks because I hate people who constantly remind others of their insecurities. But here I am, doing it. Hyp-o-crite.
I wished pokemon were real before it was mainstream.
I always feel really awkward making wishes because I have the "Genie turn-around" thing going in mind when I make them.
What if it gets messed up?
So I have to make one really long and specific run-on wish so as to avoid it being taken the wrong way on purpose.
"I wish pokemon were real and always had been, and that we had the same relationship with them as people do in the manga/anime. Not that bad people, the good people, like, they're our friends and stuff." <- Me at 7 years old. Except I hadn't read the mangas yet so I edited my wish right now. Oops.
I'm a nerd.
So are you.
I feel empowered when I manipulate people, especially when I have the ability to drastically effect the quality of their life.
I did that a lot at my old school, so outside my group of friends, not too many people liked me.
Then again most of them didn't like me for other reasons, and I didn't like them either. Tom ruined fucking everything.
It's funny because Tom was the catalyst for my suicidal ideation, and then one letter away, Tim was, according to the definition written into law, my stalker. And both of their last names start with H. Tim scared me more than Tom, though.
I don't talk to anyone with the initials TH, which is silly, and I'm not crazy, it's just much easier to feel secure when you generalize that way.
Hey, that's what racists, homophobes, and ALL the scum of the earth do.
Fun.
2 minutes till class ends, I'm going to post this and leave now.