Alive. As terrible as it is for him to be gone, don't let his hopelessness ruin you too. Try to remember all the reasons he was your friend in the first place, mourn if you need to, after all it was, again, terrible. But then move on and live your life
In addition to what KosherKitten said, try to learn from this and if you see someone acting similarly, act before it's too late even if they might not outwardly want you to.
