I now find myself desiring a relationship. I want the intimacy one can find between lovers, the absolute trust that I see between the few perfect pairs in the world, the strength that comes with that trust to overcome the obstacles every relationship faces. As someone pointed out to me in a conversation, this could be found in a truly strong friendship, but the intimacy I speak of isn't something that can be fostered between two friends alone. It's the intimacy and closeness and warmth one can find with only one other person, and this is something I can only really describe to an extent. I have my own views on these matters, as does anybody, be it an infatuation or obsession with this, a complete disinterest in them, or straight up hatred or a fear of these relationships. I have my onw views, and in the end, I don't even know if what i'm searching for is possible. But I can damn well look.