Welcome aboard, Mr. White.
Would you please now have a seat and enjoy the ride instead of placing yourself in front of an imaginational firing squad. Have a smoke, not the last one though, have a drink, and please relax and take a step back. You've propably had an intense mental wrestling match against everything: your self, your selfconception, your image of the conception others have for you.
It is actually quite admirable that you've both managed to not be yourself for so long, and then to eventually break the persona that you based the conception others have of you on. Again, that was a rough ride. But you have to relax, calm down, and perhaps finally be at ease, if possible.
After your birthday, I had the chance to speak to you about your various things about you that I'm not fond of. Well this one is definately not one of them. In fact, your trip and this, at least for me unexpected twist, for me this has made you even more human and even more fascinating. Sorry about that, can't help it. I have to say I really feel for you. I respect you and I like you even more than before.
For now I just hope that you can get over this bad bad trip of first pretending to be someone else, then being forced to pretend you are someone else and then breaking free from it. Take your time, recover, do things at a light pace and don't force yourself. Don't try to be the perfect, role model, super mod you may wish to be. Sometimes you just have to stay in your pijamas, eat soup in bed and rest a lot. Rest and relax.
And, I wish that as soon as possible you'll feel at ease with it all, slip comfortably both into being yourself and being here and continue to bring it on here.
The only little bits that I hope will change after all of that: I wish you'll stop putting so much pressure on yourself, in any possible way. I wish you'll stop being too much intense and too much uptight and be more at ease.
Bravery or cowardice, truth or lies, credibility or doubt? I don't give a flying toss about these things!!! I'm here to have fun, which involves having fun with you too (which involves followinf the SchemeTeam and also LC Gen4 mind you!). Also, if you've actually managed to deceive so many people for all this time... I'm sorry I can't stop it I tip my hat to you! Ok, that propably sucked for you first and foremost, but still that was incredible and I congratulate you for pulling it off! Too bad that you'll have a lot of pain and trouble looking back at this in any positive way.
Whenever you get back on the server, will you bother answering to me? I may have to give you one or two things that befit the situation.