So, what happened today, was that a couple of guys did something really bad and as a result, everybody in my class (and yes, this is the whole junior class) got suspended for a day, including me. I feel so embarrassed and ashamed of myself for getting suspended. I feel like a failure and feel like I don't deserve to live. I feel like I won't have a future anymore or I can't go to college anymore (nobody would want me in their college) because I got suspended I feel hated by my teachers and everyone. I feel alone because I don't get along with my parents and we constantly fight and I feel like it's my fault. I struggled my whole life with depression because I've always been told that I'm nothing and that I'm a worthless piece of s***. I am now thinking of suicide, but before I even go there, I want to hear what you guys have to say. I know suicide is not the answer, but I just feel so hopeless. I feel like I'm a waste of air, time, and space. I keep hoping everyday that my life will get better, but it doesn't, it only gets worse. I know that the suspension is only a day, but I feel like when I come back to school, I'll be bullied and everybody will hate me. So, before I even leave this world or keep telling myself that "I'm a loser" "I'm a failure" and all that stuff, I want to hear your experience with this.
Thanks for taking your time to read this and I just wanted to let you know, thank you for everything that you've done. You guys have been like a second family and I will never forget that from my bottom of my heart. I'll miss you guys so much that I'm crying Please help me. Someone help me!
- Cool Girl