If you want to stay, then stay.
If you want to leave, then don't let the door hit you on the way out. Sorry, but you've been a head case for a while. I don't really quite care to find out why. More to the point, if you're going to say good-bye, then leave! Get over yourself, or just go. But this leaving, then coming back, then leaving again, then coming back just to help your self-esteem isn't worth it for the rest of us. I'm sorry if your personal life isn't great, but this bitching isn't worth it for all of us.
In some ways, I'm glad at the prospect of you leaving: we'll finally have a respite from this constant torrent of moaning. You're not the only one with problems, but you're the only one I know who bitches about them so often. Get your head out of your ass and think clearly! Doro has a lawsuit, for chrissakes! He should be the one bitching about it constantly! Go find your self-esteem therapy elsewhere, because it isn't gonna be found here, and it's definitely not going to be from me.
Because at this point, you're not worth my time.